He tells me that I will one day feelt he kicking of a child within me again. I wonder if god has other horrible plans for me on this will he prevent it from happening and thus taking away that gift that I can give my lover. I hope that he won't do that for I truely want to feel that life with in me the life I can give to my love.

I miss my babies and I want to so present this man with the child of my womb. I think this would be the greatest gift I could give him and the greatest expression of our love. One day perhaps we will have this and on day in our future liftimes we will have each other again.

My daughter has gotten engaged to be married and I wonder if she will be happy. I worry that she will not be. There are those My X husband to be exact that says this guy isn't real but he is my X for a reason and that being he isn't overly bright etc. And he liked to abuse. I want her to be happy ane if I find out that she isn't I will be kicking some booty.

anyway this is all I have for this entry and I know it is short but meh no tmuch to say